3P Random Reflections Blog

When I had my insight after coming across the Three Principles, I experienced what I can only explain as a period of little or no personal thought for 3 days. And during that time I experienced a number of profound insights. But when I try to explain the insights, the words are never adequate.

I can say things like "everyone is beautiful", or "we are all connected and all equal", or "there is a level of unconditional and impersonal love that is completely different from any personal feeling of love that we have ever experienced before" or that "unconditional impersonal love is fundamentally what we are all made up of", or "we are living a complete illusion" or "everything is perfect" or "we will all be perfectly OK no matter what happens, even if we die".. but these are all just words, and they often fall flat.

In fact, the first time I shared what I had realized, the person's response was no different than if I had been giving directions to get to the grocery store. Because they weren't immediately responding with "OMG! This is hilarious! We're living in a complete illusion!", I realized then that, OK, you just don't see it until you see it. It's not an experience that is understood by the intellect when we hear someone talk about it, but instead is somehow realized and felt at a deeper level through insight.

And who really knows why or how anyone sees any of this at all. I certainly didn't have anything to do with my own insight, other than through a sense of futility and hopelessness, choosing to finally "give up" on a 23 year self-help search to solve my depressive thinking and brokenness. I somehow came to the conclusion that how I was, was unfixable. I made the decision to accept it, as it was, and live with it.

In reflection, accepting my condition and stopping the search, allowed me to drop all of the thinking that went along with it. Having much less on my mind was then likely the catalyst for being able to hear something incredibly profound from the video playing on my computer screen when Jack Pransky said, "How can we take ourselves seriously, in light of the fact that we're making it all up?". My mind was blown!

Since my insight, and hearing from many others about their experience of this understanding, I've seen that it doesn't matter how much we see or don't see, since any level of insight, whether noticed as insight or not, or whether experienced because of seeing something in the Principles or not, can begin the journey toward a clearer understanding of the experience of life, allowing anyone to navigate that experience with a bit more grace. Wisdom is everywhere, and anyone can see it when they somehow allow themselves to see it.

At the same time, I know (for myself) that there's still so much more that I haven't yet realized, even if it is just to live more often in the feeling of that initial experience, which still eludes me most of the time, as I live in the complete illusion and sometimes "suffering" of my personal thinking.

The ridiculous part of all of this, is that we appear to have absolutely no "control" over whether we get this or not. There seems to be something that tends to happen when we somehow give up "trying to see it" and somehow just "allow it to happen", and that it's a process that no one can really explain except through words and metaphor, and that each person has to somehow "accidentally" get a sense of how to do for themselves.

Three years later, I'm still learning every day to sort of feel my way through the understanding of this new experience and view of the world... getting a little bit clearer sometimes with the fine subtleties in what my thinking and feeling is telling me, and catching insight into the next thing that I didn't realize that I had completely made up. For me, there's something to the saying that our intellect screams but our wisdom whispers, and so I'm slowly learning to hear the subtle whispers beneath all the noise.

But that's just my own personal experience, and for me I believe there's still much more to be seen. And ultimately, each of us, via our own often unconscious personal use of Mind, Consciousness, and Thought, we are making up our own personal reality in each moment... including how much we believe there might yet be to see, along with whatever meaning and significance that we happen to give to it.

And other than that, we'll just see it when we see it, or not. 

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